Only 23.
When I have enough money, I would go for a holiday where I can watch sunsets everyday and enjoy the great feeling of being alive. When I have a car, I would get the best audio set so I can listen to my trance collection every time I drive.
When I get my own place, I would fill it up with minimalist furniture and a best set of stereo – all for my own digital indulgence. When I get married, I would have separate bedrooms so I can still have my own privacy and thus not losing my own sense of self. When I am not married, I would get artificial insemination.
When I’m done achieving all those things, I would be perfect.
But I’m not.
Is life a mundane thing to go through? Does everyone feel the same way like I do?
Are they searching for the extraordinary, just like I am? Are we all just lost souls?
I’m still standing on the ground, back to square one. I bury myself deeper into work, trying to dismiss the sinking feeling that something is missing from my life, but I don’t know what it is. I wish I could go back to being a child again. My heart and soul is getting weary.
And I’m only 23.
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Artificial insemination? Hehe. Wouldn’t you rather do the old fashioned way? At least then you’d be enjoying it at the same time! Hehhee….
I think you’re just at a stagnant period of your life. When you just don’t know where things are leading to. Hang on there, you’ll make it!