What You Don’t Know
You’re so pathetic.
You have been given a huge responsibility and you don’t know the first clue about what to do with it. You were right – you shouldn’t have taken the job in the first place. And you made your first mistake by telling me about it.
It’s not your fault that you’re trying to cover up your devious ways by being nice and friendly in front of other people – after all, that’s what you’ve always been known as. But being nice and friendly is not enough – because it’s failing you to acknowledge and learn about human character; about what it takes to really lead.
Of course, everyone can be a leader but not everyone can lead. Simple yet so difficult to grasp for even someone as sufficiently educated as you.
It’s sad to see that you’ve more faith on those who kiss your ass and tell you things you want to hear, instead of things you need to hear. The reality might not as peachy as it looks, but you refuse to want to know anything about it, because you think you have enough shits on your plate as it is already.
Yes, it’s hard being a woman, a mother and an employee, and you are doing a lousy job on all of them.
Too bad you choose to take the less honorable way – gorging your head with useless information you probably don’t need in ten years to come, only to be recycled by a clone of yours, thinking that it’s OK because you depend your life on your only son to guarantee a safe, retired life even though you don’t even see him grow as much as you think you should.
How does it feel – working your ass off from 7:30 am to 8 pm every single day and not being able to witness his growth? Isn’t that the whole point of raising a child? Or are you just like everybody else who thinks that marriage is the final destination:
a + b + c = z
education + marriage + children = life is done?
Doesn’t it piss you off to know that I can get off at exactly 4 pm on the dot and I don’t give a shit that you have a lot of things to take care of at work and you’re pressured to abide the needs of others because you feel bad if you refuse?
Why? Because you’re weak. You sacrifice yourself and put the pleasure of others above anything else, even though they won’t know the difference once you’re gone. To them, you’re just a tool. Replaceable. Dispensable. No more, no less.
Doesn’t it piss you off that I’m no longer affected by the snide comments you throw at me whenever I “leave early”, because you can say whatever shits you want, and I don’t give a flying fuck at all?
Why? Because I’m smart. Funny how you always say in front of others that I’m just “a little bit smart”, because, come to think of it, who’s the dumb-ass here?
Because I don’t want to end up like you – wasting life on the working, instead of working on the living. You’ve got it upside down and what’s so funny is that you don’t even realize it anymore.
Why should I take advice from you? You cannot lead therefore you cannot do.
Yes, I judge you. Like you do to me. So, we both have the same view about each other – but I’m still ten marks ahead of you.
Unlike you, I am honest enough with myself to say that this is not what I want to do for the next three, five years. And as far as the world pushes me and keeps telling me that I can’t – including yourself – I will keep fighting for it.
And that is the difference between you and me.
4 comments
uhhmmm….intinya apa ya? males baca panjang2
oia, salam kenal ya
I know who this is about. Wow, I didn’t know she has a son. Who takes care of the son when they’re both at work? Maids?
No no..this is my manager. The bitch I told u about was my senior. And both of them are just as worse
hi boi, nice to meet u too
intinya, banyak org2 spt ini di dunia yang ngga siap memimpin dan mereka malah disuruh jadi pemimpin, menyeret2 org untuk menjadi setidak bahagia seperti mereka, karena hidup mereka sedemikian menyedihkannya sampe2 udah kehilangan tujuan dan menelantarkan hal2 yg justru paling penting.
Makanya jgn ikut2an hi3x…