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The Truth is…


I hide my feelings really well in front of people.

There are days when I cry inside with a smile plastered all over my face.

Yes, like I said before – I hide my feelings really well.

Lately I’ve been going through life like it’s on autopilot – get up in the morning, shower, get dressed, work, lunch, socialize, work, go home, try to sleep, fail trying to sleep, cry for a bit, take some melatonin pills, try to sleep, fall asleep and the cycle starts all over again.

But then there are moments when I feel … content.

Usually in the evenings when I walk from the office to the parking lot – the sunsets here are breathtakingly beautiful.

I love the silhouettes of the coconut trees against the purple vermilion sky. The faint rindik music playing from a distant place. The sounds of crickets slowly coming out now that the day is turning.

It’s the moment when all sounds make perfect harmony that it’s peacefully quiet.

But that moment is only beautiful for a short while until the sun disappears into the darkness.

And it’s kind of how I feel now.

This island, this life – only beautiful for a short while until I remember you.

The truth is, living in a paradise means absolutely nothing without you.